It was a happy little week :)

Well I have miscarried since I told Michael that we were pregnant. It was a week to the day I told him, but it was a happy little week though! We were definitely gleaming at the thought of a little baby to come.

The evening of Sunday October 21st, I went to the restroom and found bright red blood, my heart sank and I guess I let out a little scream as Michael came in. I was speechless and he really don't want to tell him as he was much more excited that I could have hoped for. I simply said, I am bleeding. After a few tears I scoured the Internet and found hope as I was not cramping and 50% of women experience some bleeding during their pregnancy. No cramping was good sign but cervix felt sore.

The next morning, more blood and now uterus cramps. I was definitely having a miscarriage. I wanted to leave work so bad as it was painful, I was sad and work was tough. Somehow I trucked on and stayed until 7pm that night. What the craze!

Now its Wednesday, Michael and I have returned from the doctor's office. Dr. Jurney said the miscarriage is complete and no D&C is required. We must wait two cycles to try and conceive again. The good thing is that since I have had one chemical and one miscarriage she offered to run tests on blood work to be sure their are no abnormalities or chromosome issues, etc. So that was good news to me since most doctors require three miscarriages before testing.

I really like our new obstetercian and the office was very nice, clean and a positive environment. Its an all female clinic, doctors, nurses, etc. That usually scares me that there is more serious estrogen problems in one clinic full of women but I it was actually very comforting. Especially when she shared that she too has miscarried and that she will get us pregnant soon!

Well I guess we must wait some more.....UGH

How I surprised Michael!

I asked Micahel for a romantic candlelight dinner on October 14th for Sunday night since I was flying out for four days to Argentina on Monday morning. He obliged.

I set up the formal dinning area with china, candles, etc while he was watching Sunday night football. I made two plates at a pottery party awhile back with a stork and baby drawn on the center of each plate. I painted one PINK and purple that said Sorola Sugar. The second plate I painted BLUE with green that said Sorola Spice. How did I get so creative? I stole the idea from the example at the store....

I baked his favorite cake in a heart shaped pans and placed a single layer on each plate, then I hid them both. The idea was for him to eat to the center of the plate, see the stork with baby and me say "we're pregnant".

So when he went to pick up our take out dinner, LOL, I set up the video camera across the hall to video the entire thing.

When he returned and saw the setup and me pouring caffine free diet coke, he asked ARE YOU PREGNANT? Just tell me! I couldnt stop laughing and some how I brought myself together and said: You're making me feel bad that I am not pregnant and I am going to cry if you continue....that stopped him in his tracks. Then when we were eating and I was serving him, he said again: What is going on, you are being TOO nice lately! I was like What The Heck does that mean. But I just laughed it off since we were on camera.

Eventually he got down to the middle of the cake and I gave him a "we're expecting" card with the digital HPT that said "pregnant". We kissed, high fived and opened a bottle of champagne. It worked awesome, I loved it.

Of course, he said he knew something was up the whole time.....Then I told him he was being recorded the whole time too!

ITS OFFICAL, WE ARE PREGNANT!

So this morning, Sunday October 14th, also National Children's Day, I sneeked into the bathroom and took a digital pregnancy test and it said:

PREGNANT

How exciting! So all day I have been thinking about how I am going to surprise Michael. I am definitely going to use the two plates I made at a Diva Pottery Party that I went to, they are too cute! Each one has a stork and baby, also one is pink decorated with script that says Sorola Sugar, and the blue one says Sorola Spice.

So I have set Michael, I asked if we could have a romantic candlelight dinner tonight since I fly to Argentina in the morning for four days. He said yes.

I am thinking about video taping.....

Darker line today on OPK

Michael is out of town this Saturday morning. So I thought I would test another OPK strip since like I said I have 10 of them. Well I must admit I am pretty excited to see the line did indeed get darker. Could this mean that I am pregant? Certainly hope so but the line is still faint.

I will buy a real home pregnancy test and use FMU tomorrow. Stay tuned....

No HPT, lets try an OPK

Well, its Friday and today is my day to bring breakfast for the office. Since I was bummed out yesterday, Michael bought all the ingredients, I chopped and he baked TWO mexican breakfast cassorles, what a sweet man. Everyone loved the creation.

Since I am out of HPTs and I have about 10 OPKs I decieded test one. No positive line. After awhile there was a faint line but since I have to squint to see it, its most likely an evaporation line.

I just need to accept the fact that I am not pregnant this month and stay positive. I mean sheesh its only been three months! Frustrated but definetly not depressed and out of the game yet.

Okay this is starting be no fun at all

So I took the last pregnancy I had on this morning, Thursday October 11th and it was negative. I have been bummed out all the day long as I was really hoping this month would be "the month".

Another BFN!

Well I tested on Thusday October 11th, 10 days past ovulation and I received a big fat negative. Even though my cycle isnt due for three more days, I thought I might see a positive this early since in the first month TTC, I received a faint positive at 10DPO. Oh well, I didn't think our timing was that great this month any how.

Third Month TTC

So we are in our third month trying to conceive our first little baby. Michael seems pretty excited about the process, he has come long way since earlier this year. I guess you could, "he got with the program"!

This month our intercourse timing was not at its best. First of all, we could hold off any longer and we were intimate on Friday night, September 28th. Then I was evaluating my temperatures and I had a big drop on Saturday (indicating ovulation) so we got after again. Thinking we were set, we "cooled off" on Sunday. On Monday I had another temperature drop and some others sign that indicated I was ovulating on Monday. Completely confused but we watch Monday night football and then Michael and I kicked a field goal and passed for a touchdown in our bedroom :)

Staying positive but intercourse timing this month....not so good.

Sorry its been so long

Sorry its been so long since I have posted, if I had waited another week it would have been a month.

So obviously I received another set of negative pregnancy tests. These were really negative, no faint line to them at all. I am going to chalk this one up as an unfriendly sex environment, thats my technical excuse and I am sticking to it.

In July/August I received a faint line on an early pregnancy test which is technically a positive. However aunt flow came to visit three days later and experts refer to this as a chemical pregnancy; a fertilized egg that does not implant entirely. Who knows? But at least I know we can get pregnant.

ON TO MONTH THREE!